March 10, 2007

I have been united with my love, against all odds. Turns out Bella was jumped off the cliff for sport. My last few moments in pain, and now pure bliss This would definitely make it to my favorite nights list. The voltri gave us trouble but this is the best nevertheless. Last post because I have been given a new life. It feels good to be reborn! 

March 10, 2007

This is likely my last post. My beloved Bella has died. Alice saw her jumping off a cliff. Never have I thought she would commit suicide from me leaving. This is all my fault, and just now I realize exactly how important she really was to me. Pain on top of pain. I cannot continue living, I will have the most dangerous vampires that have ever lived, the volturi, kill me.  

March 9, 2007

Bella is off doing reckless things again. This time diving off a cliff. She almost drowned (according to information I gleaned from the wolves minds) and Jacob saved her. I wish I was there. I need to keep better watch on her. I can't even say "my love" anymore. 

March 8, 2007

Jacob is back with Bella after revealing that he was a werewolf. I question why Bella keeps insisting on liking mythical creatures. The pack (gang of werewolves) discovers that another vampire named Victoria is trying to kill Bella. They start making plans to defend their territory and Bella.

March 5, 2007

Jacob broke into Bellas house this night, and I took a peek into his mind. There could be no bigger surprise compared to mine. I discovered that Jacob was actually a werewolf, and his kind hunted vampires if they invaded their territory. The gang he joined was actually forced. He had to join if if he became a werewolf.

March 1, 2007

Jacob had not been sick after all. He had been joining another gang. Now bella looks worse than ever. Some times I wish I had never left her.

February 23, 2007

Weird things are happening all around. Bella is looking for Jacob, who isn't showing up. There are more rumors about gigantic black wolfs in the forest. Even worst is that Bella, without Jacob, is doing more dangerous things by herself. She once wandered into the meadow I once showed her. She met another vampire called laurent and laurent tried to kill her. Just when I was about to jump in to save her, the wolves ran the creature down and killed him. Laurent was no more.

February 19, 2007

Yesterday Bella, Jacob, and Mike(who likes Bella) went to a movie together. Now, all three of them have the flu. Bella looks like shes all right. 

February 14, 2007

Bella seems so much happier these days. It seems that she has gotten over me. Jacob also really likes Bella, but I think he is bad influence on her. She repeatedly get hurt when with him. I feel a building pain inside me that draws me to Bella that I must hold back.

January 29, 2007

A new boy named Jacob has shown up and is helping Bella out of her depression. Wired though, I'm feeling a bit jealous. I want to be the man helping her. There are also some monsters showing up in the woods.

January 24, 2007

Her dad Charlie has finally motivated her to do something. She went on a trip with a friend Jessica, my mind readin can tell that jessica is kind of pissed at bella for ditching her for some weird people down at a bar. I don't know what happened and what on earth bella was thinking, but she seemed much happier after the thing at the bar.

November 2, 2006

She's still the same. Lifeless. I though humans could get over these things quickly. She is in so much pain it makes me want to cry, if only I could.

September 17, 2006

I stayed behind, but it was torturing me. Every second I wanted to tell her that I was still hear,  smell her hair and touch it. I could see it was torturing her, too.  She looked lifeless in the day, and at night she screamed from bad dreams.

September 16, 2006

Jasper and Alice have gone and my family is going to move because of my plan . My plan is to erase myself from Bellas life. It will be as if I had never existed, I took all traces of me away including pictures. Today I went and tried to be as emotionless as possible. I told her she wasn't good enough for me .And as blatantly as I could, I told her I was breaking up with her and left. But my love made me watch her,  I  stayed behind to observe.

September 15, 2006

I have started to sort of shun her, if I do this enough Bella might leave me. I think she is sensing something is wrong. I'm not sure if I can bear it, but I need to try for her sake. 

September 14, 2006 (night)

It was Bella's birthday today and I Alice, my sister, set up an amazing party for my only one. But at the party, bella cut herself . Oh, the smell of that blood. She made it out safely, but It was a close call. Today had confirmed my fears, Bella was not safe around me. I am making plans for her to leave me, it pains me to think about it. But it's for her own good.

September 14, 2006

Today, I watched a movie with my love bella. It was Romeo and Juliet, it's a horrible movie, quite a bore, but sitting there with bella was enough. There is none else for me, but I fear for her safety and happiness around me. She wants to join me as a vampire and she does not understand or listen to the risk and pain involved in the process.